Miss You

by Erin Blair

TITLE: Miss You
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net
CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORY: SRA---Story, Romance, Angst. CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance
RATING: PG
DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to
Gossamer, EMXC, Ephemeral, After the Fact, etc. All others - feel free to archive this. Let me know where it is, of course.
SPOILERS: all things, Requiem, DeadAlive, Existence, NIHT, TrustNo1, William, pre-the Truth. SETTING: Season 9
DATE: First draft -- October 10, 2003. Final draft: October 14, 2003.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Special thank you to Jen who beta read this story.
DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to Chris Carter. In my world, they would never give up William!
SUMMARY: Mulder yearns for Scully and
their son, William. Will he decide to come home?


Miss You
Written by: Erin M. Blair

I never thought we would be apart. For one moment in time, we were together. I remember our lips touching, mine caressing yours to complete our first kiss.

We were partners in every sense of the word. I remember when we first made love, Scully. Our bodies united, full of love, and then we created William.

I realize now that leaving you to go to the plausible state of Oregon with Skinner was a mistake. Neither you nor I knew if I would survive.

But I did survive -- barely -- as I returned to your embrace.

When I left again to parts unknown, I thought I was keeping my little family -- you and William -- safe. That's the only reason why I left. If only had I realized the consequences of my actions - our son gone. I know what pain you must have succumbed to. Even though I was faraway, I could hear your cries of pain.

Never knowing our baby's firsts. Never knowing our son's words.

I miss him dearly. The pain is so unrelenting and I realize it's your pain, too.

I miss you, Scully, and I miss our child.

Always.

I want to see you so much, Scully, to ease your pain. I want you not to be broken. I want the pain to end for us both. I know we will get him back. I want to believe that, not only for you but for me as well.

When I come back to you, I want to take you in my arms and never let you go. We will find a way to get our child back. We have an out in the adoption papers: I'd never signed them. I still have my rights, Scully. I will get him back for us.

I once told you to never give up on a miracle. I want you to remember that when I come back to you. If I can come back to you so many times, I know William can come back, too.

I could feel you, Scully, deep within my heart and soul. You're always with me even though you're not physically here.

I will always remember you, for our love has held us together for many years. It has strenghened due to our relentless search for the truth.

I thought my search was to find Samantha but it led me to you, my holy grail. You're my purpose for living. I wouldn't last a day without you. I have always known you're my touchstone, my soulmate, and my truth. You have made me a whole person. Your strength and rationalization have saved me a thousand times.

I know I told you this a long time ago, in the hallway of my apartment. Everything I said that day was true. I miss you so much, and I want to come home. I want to be with you now.

I'm coming home, Scully.

End of Story.

Feedback: I would love feedback. Send
to: eblair@sonic.net

Author's Notes:

This was originally a poem but I've turned it into a story. I thought it would look better that way. :) I hope you enjoyed this story as I had writing it. I would like to thank everyone at the Haven for being so supportive of me. I would like to thank Jen for always being there for me. :)

I was inspired by various photos of David Duchovny and his Mulder in the DD folder at Haven. And the new photos of Gillian Anderson in the GA folder at Haven. I truly miss seeing them on the X-Files. You truly begin to appreciate something until it's gone. This story is strongly dedicated to their beautiful portrayals of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully.


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